Best Fathers Day Ever

I had the best time this weekend with my son. Words can't express it so check out the videos so you can enjoy it with me as well. I do want to say that Judah went crazy when he saw his cousins and they all had the best time together. I'm glad that they are able to spend time with each other so they can build that family relationship. It was also a blessing to have Judah dedicated this weekend by my father at church.

Here are the fish

JUDAH COLE!!!!

I know this has been a long time in the making but I want to thank all of my friends and family for their prayer and support! The court made a ruling on Judahs' last name this past week and the child advocate lawyer, the psychologist, and the judge all decided that it was in Judahs best interest that his last name be changed to COLE!!!!!!!! One good thing is I don't have to change my blog name...lol but it is great news to a father knowing that your son will carry on your last name. This was just as important to me as it was my father, he is very happy that his grandson will carry on the name that he has worked so hard to protect and make "good". Besides God's blessings in this situation it was also a tremendous blessing to bring Judah back to Indiana with me for the first time! He got to go and spend the weekend with all the family, everyone from the grandparents to all his cousins and my nieces and nephews. The family went crazy over him and everyone fought over who's bed he got to sleep in, daddy won that fight..lol. He also got to go fishing, swimming, rode around on the golf cart, chase bullfrogs, and be spoiled rotten by grandma and grandpa. I hope you enjoy the videos and take a look at all the fish we caught!!!!

Worlds Smallest Circus!!!

Even thought this was the worst circus I have ever been to the priceless look on Judahs face was worth every penny. It was great being able to share his first circus with him. Just to give you an idea of how small the circus was the vendors, clean-up crew, clowns, and stage hands were also the performers that rotated from spot to spot during the show. But to a 17 month old it was the worlds greatest thing! All he could do is point and smile saying, that, that, that, that, it was soooo cute!!! I love him so much and was so glad to be the one to share that with him. I hope you enjoy the pictures and videos as much as I enjoyed taking them.

Good Feeling

I have pictures and videos but you will have to wait a bit before I post them. What I want to share with you is a good feeling, or better yet a GREAT FEELING! When I went to pick up Judah a couple weeks ago I went up to the car and he caught just a glimpse of who was approaching the car and I saw him light up like a Christmas tree! I had to go back to my vehicle and when I came back to Jodi's car Judah had his face PLASTERED up against the window with his nose squished against the glass and slobber running down the window because of his "father like" cheesy grin, and the closer I got he began to bounce up and down. As he was taken out of the car he couldn't get to my arms fast enough, and as I grabbed him he took both his hands and put them on the sides of my face and looked me in the eyes almost as to say "hi daddy, I've missed you!"

With every visit he continues to get more and more excited to see me and every time I drop him off I can tell it is getting harder and harder for him to let go. It is a tough thing to have such joy and sadness at the same time. I love my son greatly and I'm so happy that he is overjoyed to see me as I am overjoyed to see him as well but that sadness in letting him go hurts my heart and as he gets older it will do the same to him as well. As he looks back to see where I'm going I wish he would understand that I'll be back and that I'll be there for him whenever he needs me.

I guess the reason I'm writing this is to let those of you who read my blog and don't just come for the Anne Geddes baby pictures (she's the one that puts babies in flowers and bear outfits etc..) and the Steven Spielberg videos with the amazing C.G.I. effects of me and my son actually having a good time together...lol, feeling left out. I wanted to put down my heart in writing rather than people trying to see it in a video or a picture. Sometimes people can see it better in words than in a movie. They say a picture say's a thousand words so rather than post a picture I figured I'd just write the 1000 words...lol. I hope all is well with everyone! Judah and I are doing great!

Few more videos